Love Notes

I’m in danger of losing myself in you but it’s the safest feeling that I’ve ever known.

All emotions are heightened when you’re near. Yet the world is the calmest than I’ve ever felt. It feels like a whirlwind that happened over centuries. The feeling just came and swept me away yet my soul has known you for a hundred years.

One day we’re just being, just enjoying each others company, the next I’m waking terrified from a nightmare where my world is in disarray from a dream where you took your love away.

I’ve never known a more peaceful feeling than sitting breathing the same air you’re breathing.

When we touch, lightning strikes and is instantly grounded. I hope we can touch forever but forever was never promised so I will enjoy today.


My heart quickens, my skin tingles as anticipation shortens my breath pushing my chest out so the feel of lace against my skin hardens my nipples. All it took was a look. Your look. Intense. Piercing. It holds me captive. You move closer, holding my eyes, and I burn from yearning. Then you smile, and oh that smile, full of mischief, hinting at a joke known only by you but I can feel it too. It makes me smile. My body relaxes and I let out a the breath I didn’t realise I was holding.

Your hand reaches out, touches my fingers. A light touch. You held my hand and captured my soul. Your eyes never leave mine. Your thumb traces soft circles on the back of my hand and then caresses upward along my arm. Every hair on my body stands on edge by the time you hand comes to rest on my shoulder. You stroke my throat, the smile is gone but the passion in your eyes remain. I’m breathless. You lean in and nothing else in the world exists.

My head tilts up, your forehead touches mine and rests there briefly. My eyes close. The electricity between us sparks to a full flame as you close the gap and bring your lips to mine. I feel the warmth, the moisture. I taste mint on your breath. My soul becomes joined with yours. When we move apart everything is different. I’ve never felt anything like this. That kiss. Glorious.

Simon Says

Charlie remembered when he was five and was running through the yard shrieking in delight. He had just completely destroyed his mother’s garden. The garden she explicitly told him to stay very far away from. Then there was that incident when he was twelve and he was told to carry his sister down the street to his grandparents house and they were both to stay there and not leave.

Instead he went dropped his sister off and told his grandparents that his parents gave him permission to go with friends to the river. Sensations tingled on his backside from the memory of the whipping he received from his father when his parents found out what he had done.

He was always doing things like that; lying and getting into mischief. Sometimes he wasn’t even up to anything. Sometimes he just didn’t want to wash the wares when he was told or go straight to practice. Sometimes he would take a detour for no reason.

It wasn’t that he detested taking orders. He wanted to do right, really he did. It was Simon. Simon was always the one telling him to disobey. His voice was incessant inside his head.

“Disobey.” He said.

They are wrong.” He said.

Why should you listen to them.”

Simon was a rebel. Simon hated instruction. And Simon controlled Charlie.

It was never clear when or how Simon’s control came to be but Charlie could scarce remember a day without Simon’s voice in his head.


“Mr. Goodridge!” The prosecutor waved his hand in front my face. I snapped alert. “Yes Mr Bartholomew. I was her house that night.”

” Don’t tell him you idiot!”

“I have to!”

“You have to what Mr. Goodridge?” The puzzled look on everyone’s face made me remember that they couldn’t hear him. I don’t know why but Simon only spoke to me.

“I have to explain,” the lie came naturally, ” I was at her house that night, but….”

“But, what?”

I fumbled about, looking nervously at the audience. Mr Bartholomew wore a black three piece suit like all the other lawyers, hell even I wore a black suit. There was a lady to the back of the courtroom in a striking red dress and white jacket. She was beautiful. Not in a magazine cover beauty kind of way but beautiful…no intriguing, captivating, mysterious kind of way. There were Susan’s parents and her brother sitting just behind the prosecutors bench. Four other people watched. I didn’t know who they were. The jury, five women and three men, sat apart, trying to judge my innocence. And then there was my parents. My father with his intense eyes looking hard at me and my mother who looked nervous and on the verge of tears. They didn’t believe I was innocent. Everyone here to judge me.

I glanced over them, completely uninterested, except for the woman in the red dress. As much as I wanted to not be interested, and it really isn’t the best time, I was curious. Who is she? What would she taste like? How can I have…

“Mr Goodridge. You were at her house but?”

Damn! I forgot I needed a lie.

“Tell them but you just went to get back your ring.”

“But I just went to get my ring back. I was there for maybe 10 minutes. But when I left she was alive.”

…… stay tuned for the continuation. This originated from a #dailyprompt for #disobey and now it may become a serial blog/short storey.


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Timeless Advice for a Peaceful Life

So I wrote this piece way back to start 2010 and now over 6 years later, I find it as useful now as it was then. So I’m sharing it here for you fine folks, I hope you enjoy!
Drop me a comment at the end!

So ok 2010 is here, SO WHAT? What does it mean? Well as with the rising of the sun on each new day, it means the chance for a fresh start. This year is for the fulfillment of BIG DREAMS, not everyone will live or have lived to see this new year……

so shouldn’t we be glad that we have this opportunity to live the life we want to live? These are our best years or so everyone keeps telling us but it won’t be unless we make it…..

2009 was not really the best year or my life but it was the year of the most personal GROWTH. If it’s one thing I learned from 2009, it’s that all those stupid sounding clichés are founded on probably the greatest life lesson there is……


But let’s be honest, the happiest times you’ve had in your life, were u ever thinking about the past or the future? I’m sure u weren’t cause I know when I look back on my happiest memories I sure as hell was not thinking about anything but that moment.

If you haven’t seen THE PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS then u need to buy the DVD or something because its amazing how that story inspires me….

the guy was destitute, no money, a kid to look after, no home to sleep in, but he still went to the internship that he begged for that paid NO money and worked his ASS off putting up with an intolerable boss……..

Y?……because he had a dream and he knew he had to work to get it and there is no better day than TODAY………that’s right this very moment could be the start of the rest of your life………….

ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING….sounds familiar?…’s been said before…… many times………let me give u an example………

I HATE washing wares………like HATE it ……….but then one day I just went over and washed them….nobody was pressing me to wash them and it didn’t thrill me to wash them but they had to be washed……..

I realized a little later that even when someone has the power to make u do something even if u don’t really want to do it, if u do it willingly or at least accept that you have to do it and one day you’ll not have to follow commands it will be smooth and easy…….

now don’t get me wrong ……I don’t mean be a pushover, au contraire, stand up for yourself and your dreams but when u know something has to happen, no matter how unpleasant, if it has to happen, if you have to do it before you can do what you want to do, as long as it’s legal, JUST DO IT!……..I’m sure NIKE knew how profound their slogan was….lol……..but even if u don’t have to do it, if it won’t hurt anyone then why not just do it WILLINGLY.

WILLINGLY……………for a long time (when I was younger of course) I saw that word in the Bible, I’m not sure which passage but I saw it, and for a long time I could not grasp the concept, but this past year I finally understand completely what it means……….

It goes back to attitude and is the best thing I could have realized in my life….so all u folks out there with bad attitudes……..your life will never look up until you perk up……hahahaha doesn’t that sound grand!

So now that I’ve covered that there is one more thing I’d like to leave you all with…. A CLEAN MIND AND A PURE HEART……….whoa! What girl ………….when u get so spiritual…..hahaha I always was but we’ll discuss that later……….

You know when people say if u take your prayers to god with a clean mind and a pure heart your prayers would be answered….did u know that its true?……..

Well you don’t always get what u want but you will realize that what you think you want is not really what you need or what’s best for you……..that’s when you’ll find a spiritual peacefulness or contentment with life……….

When u can look into your own body, mind and soul and listen carefully and harmonize with them……………that’s when you would know what you need and that’s when you’ll realize that you’ll always have exactly what you want……….because you’ll have peace of mind…….. and actually that’s the only thing we all really want……………PEACE OF MIND!

Well that leaves only now my wishes for everyone for this new year and beyond…….A GREAT ATTITUDE…………..GREAT HEALTH………..A CLEAN MIND……A PURE HEART………..CONTINUED SELF IMPROVEMENT……….SUCCESS IN LIFE AND LOVE……….FINANCIAL STABILITY…………..HAPPYNESS

………… AND …… PEACE OF MIND!!!

Happy 2010!!!

Happy Life!

Shoulders Back!

Chin up!

Chest Out!



~~~Ms Abby Kay~~~